Movember

Ok a quick summary of the last few days, I feel that the blog is something i shouldn’t have stopped doing, because it works so well as a brain soother for me, i know it’s very self-centred, however it is now crucial i either find someone I can talk to in full confidence or i open up more on here because in all honesty it’s all just building up which is not good for anyone, I must be in some proper down this week because I’m just feeling pointless and sluggish, which as you know isn’t me. So i am hoping by Friday or sooner I am going to be myself again.

Where was i monday i hear you ask, well, let me tell you about monday, Where the fuck did it go? monday consisted of waking up at 4ish realising i had missed my favourite lecture, looking at a dead phone which decided to die before being my alarm. So i had a little bit of a hissy, but mad myself some well tasty curry to make up for it. Then it was onwards and upwards to the doing work stage i thought as i missed a lecture i should catch up on some work, i did this was ace, completing some essay plans is what i should live my life for honestly. Ok, so once i had completed the most simplest of my tasks i decided “y’kno thinks I’m now going to go out”
You don’t know how great this choice of mine was! Almost literally everyone i know was out! so i had a lot of choices to make, i decided on the Bulldogs, to be my partners in crime for the night, so task one to find them, stumbling into Spoons, to find Levi, Ollie and other than downing, yes DOWNING a CASTER of jeagerbomb, got me dubbed as Cook. what can i say when the northern cobras are out we do some crazy shit! now you can guess i got messy and yes it was an epic night, but i need not bore you with the details

Tuesday. bad times, i woke up late again, so now i am in constant fear that i have some real bad sleep issues, (oh shit it’s like 3 in the morning when i am writing this! :| ) so i do think i have ruined my sleeping patterns but so what, “I’m a student” right :) ok after missing two group meetings both business and drama ones i rush to my car to find i am blocked in, spend bout 10 mins finding some man move his van like a meter. sprint drive to the nearest petrol station only to realise every person in bath has decided to get into their cars and stop me. I HATE TRAFFIC. i lose another half an hour trying to get to the bloody uni, where i pull up just in time to take “The library test” . As you could guess I’m bricking it, i see matt and i knew the shared feelings of “Oh Shit man we’re going to fail and look like twats” was on both our minds. however, low and behold I GOT LIKE THE HIGHEST MARKS!!! this put me in the happiest mood for a while, I was well proud of being a nerd, i mean that’s the reason i came to uni isn’t it? So Onto the drama seminar, consisting of bickering and bullshit.
Which to be completely frank sums up my Tuesday night, with only the aspect of having a rant on here being the main highlight
well i did go round to Charlton to see matt(again) Kat and Becca, but it wasn’t half as awesome as my beautiful over active brain had imagined, but still i got free food so i ain’t complaining.

But basically i need to come to terms that i may have fucked myself over here, i do believe i have made the wrong impression on people and i am not known for who i really am, yeh i do love to do what i have done (very well) the last 8 weeks, I mean I’m a white boy that’s learned to dance thanks to my new latino dance teacher (yes Alex you) but Even to the people i feel closest to, i don’t think i could open up to them just yet, unlike Calen or my other boys back home i haven’t got trust in people here yet, i guess it’s just another case of my trust issues coming through, meh who knows at the rate I’m going something awesome needs to come along or I’m just going to pull you down to where i lie.

Someone Fill This Constant Void I’m In?
please? It’d be so nice to have that.
The best part is, some people couldn’t even comprehend how insanely green I am over what they have, and they don’t even know what i want. Fuck this, fuck my life, I’m just going sleep and do some economics in the morning. Woop Can’t WAIT.

Peace.